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It has been a minute since I have jumped on here and spoke about MOM LIFE! Many of you always ask how I do it, and honestly I have no idea. I usually don’t go in depth about how I’m feeling about things, but I thought I would share because I know someone out there feels the same way I do.

I may seem to have it all together, but reality is that I do have mini breakdowns sometimes. The other day I was holding Averi and started to cry. I have no idea why I was crying and what was going on. Ahmad walked in the room, turned the light on and looked at me like, “um what is wrong with you?”. I had no idea what was wrong, but I was crying. Then it hit me all of a sudden that Averi is the last little baby that I will ever give birth to. She is sitting up by herself, and growing so fast. I just felt like I wanted time to slow down, and no one was there to understand. Of course Ahmad cares, but he will never understand a mothers love and what its like to birth your baby. I was sad, or should I say I AM SAD! Then I realized I have to get it together because what am I going to do on their first day of school, first dance, when they go off to college, and get married? I am going to be crying all over the place, so let me get it together and collect my thoughts.

I think that just knowing that I can no longer physically have a baby saddens my heart, but at the same time I am grateful and blessed to have 3 healthy children and so lucky to be their mom!

I wouldn’t trade this mom life for anything in the world!

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