Well, if you follow me on social media then you already know that I am pregnant, AGAIN, and am super excited! I had been hiding this for a while now, but with this pregnancy I am gaining weight and showing way faster than I expected. Ahmad was like, “Shay, I don’t know who you think you are hiding that stomach from”. That’s when reality hit me, and I was trying to figure out a way to share with all of you.
Well lets rewind a little bit… I had no idea I was pregnant at first. You think I would know by now when I am pregnant, but for some reason I had no idea. There were no changes in my body and I felt pretty normal for the most part. You know the main thing we all look for is our period to come, but mine hasn’t been consistent every since I had Ashton. I have been pregnant for the past 4 years straight, and my body just hasn’t been the same. Once I finally went to the doctor for the “confirmation” I was happy, but went into major shock. I have a million things to do, and a baby right now wasn’t apart of my plan. You know God laughs when we make our own plans, so there goes that! One of my besties is getting married in Puerto Rico and I’m like I cant miss her wedding. My sister, Trenace, is getting married and I really don’t want to be the pregnant bridesmaid. I’m in my good friend Stephanie’s wedding, and I will be full term wobbling down the aisle at that wedding. Besides all this happy love that is surrounding me, I was just at awe that I was having another baby. I was embarrassed to tell them the news, and didn’t want them to be mad at me. Like who wants a pregnant girl destroying their wedding pictures is what I was thinking (just being honest of what was going on in my head).
Besides that, my husband and I always said 3 kids max, and this was really happening. Like could we afford another kid? Do I have time? What in the world am I going to do? I seriously going to have to get a new car, and be a real soccer mom at this point. So many emotions going on in my head that I didn’t know how to be happy and share the news and just enjoy the moment. I didn’t even tell my parents I was pregnant, I let Ahmad spread the news because I was just overwhelmed. The hardest part for me is working full time and having 3 kids. I don’t want to miss a beat with my babies. I feel as if sometimes work comes first, or Ahmad is being more of the parent figure because I’m always at work.
Then the moment came when I just prayed and asked God why am I feeling this way? It all became reality, that I was stressing for no reason, and this was a gift from God. I am in a much happier place now, and back to the regular Shay that is planning everything out. I am anxious to find out the sex so I can start decorating and buying baby clothes all over again. Its crazy I will have 3 kids all under 3, and I feel like I am going to be one crazy lady!
Now that I have overshared my emotions with you, lets talk about GREECE! I will be sharing different post regarding my trip to Greece, and sharing information for all of you travelers that are going soon! So many of you have messaged me about Greece, and where to stay and what to do. I promise I will have the post up by the end of the month. There are just so many pictures to go through, and Ahmad and I are working on a VLOG that we filmed while in Greece to share on my YOUTUBE channel and social media.
I know that I have been MIA on the blog for 2 months, and I wanted to apologize to all of you that were wondering where I went. I just really needed time to get my thoughts together and get back to why I blog. I was recently kicked out of a blogger group because they said I didn’t post enough and didn’t offer quality images. It was a slap in the face because I work so hard on my blog, but at the same time I do this because I want to, not because I want to be apart of some “fashion blogger” group. The blogging world is so like mean girls, I swear. So I will make this statement here, I post when I want, and what I want. If my consistency, and my husband images that he capture of me aren’t good enough for your group, then SO BE IT! I never have been the one who try to change who I am to fit in, and its not going to start now. So guys, with that said, I am back in action, and Shay Mone isn’t going anywhere!!!
Thanks to all of you that follow along on my journey, and thank you for letting me share a glimpse of my life with you!